Becoming pregnant is indeed a blessing from God. To know that you will be God’s instrument in giving a life to a little bundle of joy is a wonderful experience. How did I know? It’s because I had already experienced it five times. All of these pregnancies brought happiness to me. Getting pregnant made me happy, but staying pregnant is not that easy for me.
I should be thankful, because my first pregnancy is a successful one. Thru normal delivery, I gave birth to a healthy and beautiful baby girl in 2009. Unlike other expecting mothers, I did not experience labor pains. No vomiting, morning sickness and I feel good throughout the whole pregnancy. I thought my successive pregnancies would be easier and smooth sailing too, but I was wrong.
In September 2010, two months before my first born turned one, I became pregnant again. I experienced brownish spotting and slight fever which is different from my first pregnancy. Later, we found out it was an ectopic pregnancy. That ectopic pregnancy resulted in the removal of my right fallopian tube in October 2010.
After four months, I got pregnant again. By that time, I was really nervous afraid that it was another ectopic pregnancy. Thank God it was an intrauterine pregnancy. I thought after seeing an active baby with a healthy heartbeat in the ultrasound, I would carry the pregnancy to full term. But I was wrong; my third pregnancy has not been that easy. Aside from the subchorionic hemorrhage noted in the ultrasound, I experienced having light greenish discharge. Pap smear result was normal. Then, my OB-Gyne’s reliever diagnosed that I have urinary tract infection after having urine test. She prescribed antibiotics for seven days. But then, at twelve weeks ultrasound after experiencing spotting, the baby lost its heartbeat. I waited for the baby to come out and had a natural miscarriage. It was really heartbreaking to see my little baby, lifeless and fragile. My OB-Gyne suspected it was due to chromosomal abnormality.
I never thought that having miscarriage really hurt. Some people say I should be thankful that at least the baby died before I bore it. But then, it still hurts even if I did not have the chance to carry her on my arms. My OB recommended giving my body to rest for at least six months before trying again. After ten months of recovery from physical and emotional pain, we tried again. As usual, I don’t have problem in conceiving even though I only have one fallopian tube remaining. It was April 2012 when I found out I am pregnant again. I am still optimistic hoping that my last miscarriage was only due to chromosomal abnormality. Like my last miscarriage, ultrasound showed again subchorionic hemorrhage. I was on Duphaston since I’m on the fourth week of pregnancy. Everything was fine in my first trimester. I was even thankful that I surpassed the first twelve weeks. That pregnancy brought so much hope for us. We even found out that I’m expecting for a baby boy during my 14 weeks ultrasound. We decided to give him the name “Justine”. I and husband thought the baby was really meant for us because already surpassed the first twelve weeks and the subchorionic hemorrhage disappeared. We never expected on July 11, 2012 that we will lose the baby too. The day that I supposed to confirm his gender was the day we found out that Baby Justine was already gone. It was a very devastating experience and it was very hard for me to accept. Maybe that explain why at 18 weeks I can’t still feel his kicks. I was induced on July 13, 2012. I was on labor pain from 4 PM to 12AM. I felt an unbearable pain which hurts more because of emotional pain. It hurts more when you know that you will give birth to a sleeping baby. I can’t explain the feeling. After that 3rd miscarriage, I was suspected of having Antiphospolipid Antibody Syndrome or APAS.
My OB GYne advised me to undergo APAS testing in order to detect what causes my recurrent miscarriage. We were informed also that this test might be costly, as well as the treatment. I decided to give my body a rest. I transferred to another OB, Dra. Arlene Pineda Rodriguez, whom my officemate referred to me. I was advised to take Folic and Iron before getting pregnant again.
By May 2013, ten months after my last miscarriage, I experienced recurrent stomachache, which was later diagnosed as acid reflux. I was advised to take medication (Omeprazole) for the treatment of my acid reflux. I enrolled in a law school in June to occupy myself.
Around June 2013, I was always feeling sleepy, until I noticed that I am already five days late. Knowing that I am pregnant again made me happy but the fear that I might lose the baby again is still there. My OB advised me to take prenatal vitamins like Obimin and Terraferon, and to prevent miscarriage again, she gave me Duphaston, Isoxilan and Aspirin. My ultrasound reports showed an active baby without subchorionic hemorrhage. However, this pregnancy was not that easy because at 4 months I experienced early contractions and abdominal cramping. So my OB put me on a strict bed rest and filed for 3 months leave.